For some stupid reason i have a tune from the 80's going through my head right now, and it's not even a song I liked lol.  I was so into poison..omg brett michaels was sooo hot, motley crue...omg vince neill was so hot, warrant, dokken, whitesnake, skid row...omg sabastian bach was hot too, guns n roses...omg axel u bad boy you.  I could go on and on.

Anyways..it's not any of them ha ha.  It's a stupid little song called i wanna be rich lol.  I want money lots and lots of money...geeze get this song outta my head lol.  Excuse me while i change into my used brand jeans and my fishnet blouse..hmm i think i will wear my jellies..oh and i musn't forget  my swatch watch lol.  I feel so 80's today lol.  Feel free to change into some jamz if u'd like..I feel like putting up some posters and playing pacman on my coleco table top arcade game.  This is so fun.  I love being an 80's kid..

Love Always,

14u2nv

You decide which one's which lol

1. It is important that a man helps you around the house and has a job.
 
2. It is important that a man makes you laugh.

3. It is important to find a man you can count on and doesn't lie to you.
 
4. It is important that a man loves you and spoils you.
 
5. It is important that these four men don't know each other.
   

One saggy boob said to the other saggy boob:  
"If we don't get some support soon, People will think We're Nuts."

Name 4 bad habits you have
* smoking
* swearing/cursing
* bitching about my weight
* too much time on the net (especially tblog)

Name 4 things you wish you could have
* true love
* chocolate
* dr pepper
* new car

Name 4 Scents you love
* vanilla
* fresh coffee brewing in the morning
* the smell of rain
* the smell of freshly cut grass

Name 4 people who know you best
* My sister
* no one else knows me as
* well as my
* sissy does

Name 4 things you never wear
* mens underwear
* thong bathing suit (I wear the panties..but never would I wear a thong bathing suit lol)
* courderoy
* shorts/pants w/ wording on the butt (My butt gets plenty of attention w/out that!)

Name 4 things you are thinking about now
* My kids
* my future (or lack thereof)
* bills
* sexuality

Name 4 things I have done today
* thought of someone I miss
* gave my ferret a flea bath
* drank a dr. pepper
* played on tblog

Name the last 4 things I have bought
* nothing
* I'm
* too
* broke

Name 4 bands/Groups most people don’t know you like
* Ministry
* Muse
* Slayer
* Duran Duran

Name 4 drinks you regularly drink
* Dr. Pepper
* coffee (with lots of sugar & cream)
* Iced tea
* ice water

Name 4 things you regularly put off
* cleaning the house
* dealing with conflict
* cleaning out my car
* talking to my mother

 Last songs you sang ….
* Love Don't Live Here Anymore (Madonna)
* Just drop dead (Limp Bizkit)
* Fuck You're Power trip (Chimmarra)
* Ordinary World (Duran Duran)

Last thing you laughed at …
my conversation with billlyryan and kurt maddox

Last time I cried
last weekend

What is in my CD Player
Linkin Park, Disturbed, Mudvayne, Slipknot

What color socks are you wearing
not wearing socks (or shoes either for that matter)

What is under my bed
My god I don't know..and I don't wanna know either!

What is my current hair color
"calico" - Many different bottle colors (from changing my mind so many times)
Mostly blonde though.

Current clothes
abercrombie jeans and a sweater

Current annoyance
People who put down other people (to hurt their feelings)

Current hate
Politics

Favorite thing about the opposite sex
They have weiners :)

If you could play any instrument
Guitar

Favorite place to be
at the beach during "non peak" time.

Least favorite place
The grocery store

Favorite color(s)
oh I love them all.

How tall are you
5'4" 

Current favorite word saying(s)
"shit fucker!"

Favorite season
Summer - I love all things that have to do with water.

One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to
My granddaddy

(he's the only person that I KNOW loved me with all his heart)

Favorite Day
of the week?  Saturday
of the year?  Christmas

Where would you like to go
England - so i can find Simon Lebon and rape him repeatedly!

What is my career going to be like
My guess is a stale mate..I'll be making little more than I do now..only I'll have senority
and people won't be able to bump me out of my vacation time anymore lol.

Just had a great coversation with "the man", KurtMaddox, and "the dominatrix" BilllyRyan..I have not lauged so hard in such a long time.  It was good for my heart.

Seems that Kurt is wanting to stop his opressive ways (being the straight white man that he is) and in turn, he wants billlyryan (the "sweet" dominatrix) to force him into submission.  Boy would I love to see that one..I wish I could sell tickets..I think it would be the tblog event of the year..What do you think?

Oh and btw..I'm am now lezbo for a day..

So umm..Who wants to do me first?

Bwaahaaahaa!

Ghost of Me

by 14u2nv

Flowing white dress..

chilly mountain air...

from a balcony

I watch you.

I long to feel you.

I long to hold you tight.

But, Your love is forbidden.

I don’t want to capture your attention,

and yet the slightest glance from you renders me breathless.

Tell me darling..can you feel it?

Many days I have spent here.

Contemplating the feelings stirring inside of me.

My eyes locked in a loving gaze.

Mezmorized In an imaginary world of only you and me.

I wish that you could see it.

I wish that I could share it with you..

but would you feel the same?

Would you understand it?

Would you give it a chance?.

Just then our eyes meet..My God those beautiful eyes!

I feel like I will cry.

Emotions built up over time, have reached a pinnacle,

but now shatter into pieces all around me.

Once again my breath escapes me

as you walk away into the sunset..

Hand in hand with someone new..

for it’s too late..the daggar has pierced my heart.

I’m no longer alive.

I am just a memory...

I remember when she was me.

I remember when I was her.

I rememeber when it was us..so deeply and emotionally in love..

Can you feel...the love surrounding you..

Can you feel the ghost of me?

While on a road trip, an elderly couple stopped at a roadside restaurant
for lunch.  After finishing their meal, they left the restaurant and resumed
their trip.

When leaving, the elderly woman unknowingly left her glasses on the table.
And, she didn't miss them until after they had been driving about twenty
minutes.By then, to add to the aggravation, they had to travel quite a
distance before they could find a place to turn around in order to return
to the restaurant to retrieve her glasses.

All the way back, the elderly husband became the classic grouchy old man.
He fussed and complained and scolded his wife relentlessly during the
entire return drive.  The more he chided her, the more agitated he became.  He just wouldn't let up one minute.

To her relief, they finally arrived at the restaurant.  And as the woman
got out of the car and hurried inside to retrieve her glasses, the old geezer
yelled to her,.......

"While you're in there, you might as well get my hat."

A guy took his blonde girl friend to her first
football game. They had great seats right behind
their team's bench... After the game, he asked her
how she liked the experience.
"Oh, I really liked it," she replied, "especially
the tight pants and all the big muscles, but I just
couldn't understand why they were killing each other
over 25 cents." 

Dumbfounded, her date asked, "What do you mean?"
"Well, I saw them flip a coin and one team got it
and then for the rest of the game, they all  kept
screaming was: 'Get the quarter back! Get the
quarter back!" Hell-looo! It's only 25 cents!

Ugggh why is it that everytime it is time for me to go workout I get a severe case of lead ass.  I mean all I want to do is go lay down and forget about the whole membership thing.  Yeah my measurements are better, but I friggen have gained weight since I started and It has built my appetite to the point that I want to eat big fat juicy hamburgers w/greasy french fries all the time..wash it down with a dr. pepper, and.. oh and are you gonna finish that??

For pete's sake..with my ravenous appetite, how am I going to "firm up & loose weight"..uhh uhh..Ain't gonna happen.  I am a freaking garbage disposal...a bottomless pit...an oinker!!  My ass will soon overtake the rest of my body...My stomach is a basketball..and still I'm hungry!

I'm not at all sure that they didn't loosen that measuring tape for my first weigh in.  The rat bastards! 

Aww Isn't that just the sweetest thing??

It's another lonely day without you.
My heart pushed aside to fend for itself.
Passers-by throw change and shout god bless,
but they know there is no hope.

All that's left is a shell of life.
A body with no spirit.
A face left expressionless by
a harsh reality of what lies ahead.

Faith is all but gone.
Tears are worth nothing.
Words are empty and meaningless.

This world stands still for no one.

Not even love.

Fall Whisper
by 14u2nv

The cool air
reminds me of lonliness.
It reminds me of
days gone by.
It reminds me of times you whispered,
things to which I held tight.

Things that pulled at my heart strings.
Things that took me away.
You made me feel so safe,
so special, so sweet.
You always brought out my innocence.
That inner-child that trusted without questioning why.
I loved how you made me feel.

I lie here dreaming of you.
Do you ever think of me?
Do you ever wish to see me again?
Though the miles have come between us,
I still long to reach out to you..
if only just to say..
I remember.

Since I'm in the reflective state of mind at this point in time, I thought I would share some findings with you..Hope you enjoy:

As I Mature

I've learned that you can not make someone love you.
All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes
suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you can get by on charm for about 15 minutes.
After that, You'd better have a big willy or huge boobs.

I've learned that you shouldn't comapre yourself to others-
they are more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting long after you think
you are finished.

I've learned that we are all responsible for the things that we do,
unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades, and there had better be alot of money to take its place!

I've learned that 99% of the time when something isn't working in your house,
One of your kids did it.

I've learned that the people you care most about in this life are taken from you
too soon, and all the less important ones just never go away.

Pass this Along to 5 friends...trust me, they'll appreciate it.  Who knows,
maybe something good will happen.

If not...tough shit!

Remember the show cheers?  I used to love Norm!  He always had those funny one liners.  I was just thinking of my two favorite ones:

1.  Everyone yells "Nooooorm"  then Sam says, hey Norm, What are you up to.  Norm responds, "My ideal weight if I were 11 feet tall."

2.  Quote from Norm " It's a dog eat dog world, and I'm wearing milk bone underwear."

What was your favorite Norm/Cheers one liner? 

Let's Flashback..shall we?

I was watching a show a little while ago called "No Place Like Home".  Wow!  What a wakeup call.  I haven't cried like that in a long time.  It was about these children living in homeless shelters (mainly due to parents with drug addictions).  It broke my heart how one of these children was trying so hard to get his family out of that shelter, He kept trying to cheer his mom up and even tried to get a job, but he was too young to work.

To make matters worse  his mother died of a drug overdose while in the shelter and they were subject to sleeping on hard mats on the floor because the father wouldn't quit drinking and adhere to the shelters rules.  My god!  The father did this..not the child!

..Anyways, there were many stories..equally as sad..I kept wondering to myself..where are these peoples friends..their families?  Does no one around them care?  What is this world coming to ?  How can you sit by and watch children suffer like that.  Why are these children still in the custody of thier drug addicted parents?  Will these children ever find the love and comfort they deserve?  I pray that they will..I'm truly saddened by the state of our world...Where is love?

14 Ways To Maintain A Healthy Level of Insanity :

1. At Lunch Time, Sit In Your Parked Car With Sunglasses on and
point  a hair dryer At Passing Cars. See If They Slow Down.

2. Page Yourself Over The Intercom. Don't Disguise Your Voice.

3. Put Your Garbage Can On Your Desk And Label It "In."

4. Put Decaf In The Coffee Maker For 3 Weeks. Once Everyone Has
 Gotten over Their Caffeine Addictions, Switch To Espresso.

5. In The Memo Field Of All Your Checks, Write "For Sexual
Favors."

6. Finish All Your sentences with "In Accordance With The
Prophecy."

7. As Often As Possible, Skip Rather Than Walk.

8. Ask People What Sex They Are. Laugh Hysterically After They
Answer.

9. Specify That Your Drive-through Order Is "To Go."  (IVE ACTUALLY HEARD SOMEONE DO THIS)

10. Sing Along At The Opera.

11. Put Mosquito Netting Around Your Work Area And Play
Tropical Sounds All Day.

12. Have Your Co-workers Address You By Your Wrestling name,
(Rock Hard or other appropriate name).

13. When The Money Comes Out Of The ATM, Scream "I Won, I Won!"

14. Tell Your Children Over Dinner, "Due To The Economy, We Are
Going To Have To Let One Of You Go."

Anguish Revealed

by 14u2nv

Horribly disfigured

an angel in desguise

Covered in anguish

Covered in lies

Hauting little picture

of the way I really feel

Questioning my sanity

Wishing this wasn’t real

By standers staring

in horror and disbelief

as I stand here crying

filled with so much grief

I long to find water

to wash away my past

I wish to find comfort

in this world that will not last

I wish to recapture beauty

the beauty that lies within

I wish to be complete

I only wish my heart to mend

Walk away lonely

My head is hung down low

Taken for granted

That’s all I really know

Horribly disfigured

An angel in disquise

Covered in anguish

Covered in all your lies

SEXY HUH? :P

Never hold your farts in.
They travel up your spine, into your brain, and that
is where shitty ideas come from!!!!  

Uggh am I the only one?  Every morning, I reach into my purse to get my keys out..and yikes..I don't see them.  I start moving everything around, looking into my secret compartments etc..notta..I'm panicking..shit ! I'm gonna be late.

hmm so i jingle my purse around..I HEAR THEM!!  I know you're in there you sorry mf'rs..and I WILL find you!

keys suck!!