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For Husbands
11.30.04 (12:07 pm)   [edit]

Imagine your reflection on the water.


swirling your finger round and round,


look at the funny faces you make.


Pick a flower.


Take it home..


Give it to your wife.


When you walk through the door


Instead of reaching for the remote..


why not reach for her


and after that..reach for your children..


or better yet..reach for them all at once.


When you go to bed tonight..


tuck your kids in tight before you turn out the light.


Then..


go back in time and revisit the feelings of the first time the two of you made love.


Remind yourself what it feels like to make love with meaning..


with intensity..with compassion..


Notice how much stronger the feelings are?


Stay up late talking,


Take a shower together,


snuggle closely in bed...


All things you can do free of charge to improve your home/love life.


It's just a suggestion....I dare you to try!

 
Rudeness
11.30.04 (5:23 am)   [edit]

A person who shall remain nameless was quite the asshole this morning.  Throwing a fit because I wouldn't allow them to throw clothes from the dryer all over the kitchen table (after I just got through cleaning the house).  As they stomped away yelling fuck you, I'm sick of your whining.", that person who shall remain nameless slammed the door and hopped in a truck that should have been freezing cold, but I had already warmed it up for them. (it's very cold outside today)  Hmm wonder if he feels good about what he said and did now.  Oh well..Lesson learned..Think before you speak jerk wad!!  Maybe you should pay attention and learn to be more compassionate yourself.  Then maybe you wouldn't keep inserting your foot into your mouth..Hope he has a great day!


Love Always,


14u2nv

 
Pilsbury Dough Boy
11.29.04 (5:28 am)   [edit]

 
Not Quite Sure How To Take This! (funny either way)
11.27.04 (11:14 pm)   [edit]
 
drextrovert music
11.26.04 (9:10 pm)   [edit]

I have been granted permission to use the music of drextrovert (grrrr an ex b/f of mine lol) http://drextrovert.tblog.com" title="http://drextrovert.tblog.com" target="_blank"http://drextrovert.tblog.com  on my blog.  The music is from his old band (5 Factor Model)..but OMG that voice.. I'm really excited about this because I absolutely adore it.  Not to mention it just sparks a few good memories that I never want to loose..and makes me all tingly (by that I just mean i t makes me horny and stuff lol!)  I used to have the cd and well lets just say when the new b/f came along...well..the cd just suddenly disappeared..and I have missed it terribly since.  It was my favorite and I listened to it ALL THE TIME!  I hope you will also enjoy it..make sure to leave him lots of nice comments lol (help me "kiss his butt" for letting me use it) okay? Thanks!!


THANK YOU DREXTROVERT!!!


Love Always,


14u2nv

 
Utopia
11.22.04 (10:00 am)   [edit]
Waking with angels
on clouds up so high
the sound of precious laughter
and a lovely lullabye

Sweetest smell of heaven
children playing silly games
I feel so close to them
though I don't even know their names

I See their smiling faces
as they gesture me to come near
without even thinking
without the slightest fear

I'm playing hopscotch
with a little boy and girl
they allow me to become
a part of their fun & secret world

Soon I too am laughing
age just fades away
all my troubles banished
but I tell them I can't stay

Suddenly wings are bestowed on me
from somewhere deep within
The children looking up to me
as they both giggle and they grin

For you have found your place my dear
they whisper in my ear
No more hurting in your heart
there is nothing left for you to fear

But I am so unworthy
for I'm a sinner and I do wrong
But Your heart is what matters
It's all that mattered all along

They gently place my hand in theirs
and tell me not to cry
"everyone you left on earth
is going to be just fine"

For our Lord is watching over them
just as he watched over you
he will erase the memories
of everything that you ever knew

A flash of light now gleaming
not one sad memory will stay
In this beautiful world
where all my hurt is washed away
 
NOT FOR UNDER 18!!
11.20.04 (7:02 pm)   [edit]

You make me sick


I can't trust one fucking word you say


You tell me you love me


then deceive me again


I think it's like masturbation to you


The more you hurt me


the more satisfied you become


unable to wait for the final release


Lets see just how far you can go

 
To My Friend:
11.19.04 (11:10 am)   [edit]

My friend holds on .


He keeps his chin up.


When things don't go right,


he just becomes cold to it.


I wish so bad that I could do that.


My only advice is..Make sure


not to find the numbness


by covering it with someone new.


Don't use someone as a "band-aid".


If you use someone in that way,


you're wounds will only


become larger and spread


it's germs and infections to


the person trying to help you.


Alas another broken relationship.


I don't wish this for you.


Spend some time alone..


Give yourself time to heal..


then move on and be happy once again.

 
Many Will Disagree
11.19.04 (8:12 am)   [edit]
Ok I know this is not "politically correct" and maybe even "selfish" but I think this sucks.  During the time I am off for my surgery I do not get paid.  The only way I get paid is if I give up next years vacation (all of it) and this year's Christmas bonus.  I'm sorry but the bank I work for rakes in major bucks..In fact they are rolling in the shit.  Why can't they just be nice and pay me for it withought making me have to pay for it later.  I mean it isn't like they can't afford too or like I just really didn't have to have time off after and for my surgery..Why are these fuckers like that??  I know some will say well they don't "owe you anything" or "feel lucky they are giving you this option"  okay..point taken..but on the same hand why can't they for once go out of their way for ME instead of me for them?  They have the bucks..I don't..cut me some slack geeze!  Sorry Mother Fuckers!
 
Creeping Sorrow
11.16.04 (12:52 pm)   [edit]

Sorrow finds its way into your heart
when you least expect it.  It filters
through every vein in your body and
seeps out through every pore in your
skin..Though you may try to hide it,
sorrow refuses to lie dormant and unnoticed.
A single word can wake it from an unrestful sleep,
even a scent or a particular feeling can sometimes
bring the sorrow back to you. 


These are the times I wish to be with you.
I wish to lay with you and hold you tight.
These are the times I want to tell you how special
you are.  These are the times I want to wipe away
your tears and make everything better.
These are the times I want to call you and tell you
a funny joke or bring you a teddy bear and give you
great big hugs.  These are the times I want to be
there for you...if only to say..."You know what??"
"I care." :)


 

 
Elmo (like you've never seen him b4)
11.12.04 (9:26 am)   [edit]


 
Alter Ego???
11.11.04 (10:21 pm)   [edit]

One day (not too long ago) being my normal goofy self, I drove right by my sister and gave her the bird (my usual sisterly guesture, along with the other gesture shown below..)..How was I to know she had a camera w/ a zoom lens lol..here's the outcome of that..My crazy sissy lol !  She couldda at least done it when I had my contacts in..geeze.



Now if that wasn't enough humiliation..her b/f took it a step further..he decided to manipulate the pic in photoshop (it's kinda dark..so i'm not sure if you can see it - as my moniter settings are way fucked):



Anyways..screw them both (just kidding I love my sissy) lol..Here's a pic I took of her..the larger versions are on her deviant account..which by the way we both have deviant art accounts.. (only I'm not allowed to use mine anymore..I had to take all my stuff down..damn Steve)



Yep..that's my sissy!


We kinda went though this black and white photo phase lol..


Anyways..Maybe in February I'll start revamping my deviant page..


Watch for me..I'm "PiXiEsLuT"


and there are links on my page to her accounts as well.


Night Night all :)

 
A WTF Dream????
11.11.04 (5:07 am)   [edit]

Wtf are these meds doing to me ???


I was talking to nullfactor this morning and I told him about this wierd dream I had.  We both thought it would be quite interesting to see what other people might think this dream means..I mean they all have some sort of meaning right?


The dream goes like this:  Some old man kept running into me on purpose (faking to be blind) and he would then proceed to squeeze my ass..and it just kept happening over and over in different places and I tried to tell someone but no one would believe me.


Anyways wtf is that supposed to mean huh?


 
 
9 Things that I hate about people:
11.09.04 (4:33 pm)   [edit]
1. People who point at their wrist while asking for the time.... I know
where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch
when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room
for the tv remote because they refuse to walk to the tv and change the
channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too".
Damn right! What good is a cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is.
Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do
this? Who and where are they? Gonna Kick their ass!

5. When people say while watching a film "did you see that?". No Loser, I
paid $12 to come to the cinema and stare at the damn floor.

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?".... Didn't really give me a
choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved!'. Which is it? If it's new, then
there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there
must have been something before it.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hey?? Life is the longest damn
thing anyone ever does!! What can you do that's longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come
yet?". If the bus came would I be standing here, dumbass?

 
Much Like Heaven
11.09.04 (11:40 am)   [edit]

Much Like Heaven


by 14u2nv


It is but a dream I speak of.


You may see it as intangible hope.


I see it as something to live for.


I employ it as my rope.


I climb my way to safety,


though much suffering I bear.


To find my way to it’s light.


To gaze upon it’s stare.


For I have been forsaken.


I have been misled.


Through angry lifeless hands,


my heart was often fed.


I found myself abandoned.


A curse given to me at birth.


It made me so much stronger.


It made me understand what love is worth.


But I had to travel down this path,


to understand the things that I hold dear.


I had to tread this lonely path,


to overcome my fear.


I no longer fear the evil


of hearts that don’t know or understand love.


Some day, Some how ..


I’ll smile again..I know I’ll rise above.


Because I am unrelenting.


I’ll not fall prey to disbelief.


I will not be covered in lies.


I’ll will not accept their grief.


Someday I’ll find that world,


that world that was made for me.


So don’t cry for my misfortune,


for it is my destiny.


Can you imagine how much stronger,


how much more special it will feel,


when I can place my heart into


a love that is for real?


My guess would be, Much like heaven


And I’ll not rest till I enter those beautiful gates :)

 


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